Indeed.
Well, from what I can tell, I only have two readers, not including myself when I'm checking for errors. I doubt she reads this.
I like helping people. I like being there for people. I feel like I've actually accomplished something in my life when I give advice and people listen. As much as I like it, this situation is too difficult for me to handle. I know this to be a fact because I've been in this situation before, and I failed miserably then. I don't want to remember it. I don't want to live through it again. I just can't help people when I'm solving my own problems.
It's really something. My emotions never break the surface, but that doesn't mean they don't exist. Sometimes I feel overfilled with love and there's nothing for me to do with it. On the other hand, sometimes I am overfilled with frustration, and that has gotten to me lately. Brandon has reminded me before about the week of school I missed 'cause doctors were worried I was on my way to a heart attack. I hope I'm not going to repeat that anytime soon.
I'm just going to do what I always do. I'm going to keep pushing forward. Maybe the bond will be mended and things will be ok. It's a possibility.
1 comment:
You can't be superman! The only person you can truly affect is yourself. I am sure people listen to your advice, but I am also sure they will understand that you have problems of your own. If you didn't have problems, how valid could your advice be? Take care of yourself first.
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